Friday, March 4, 2011

Copping Out

Last night I started The Abstinence Teacher  - I don't know what it wrong with me, because this book and I are not off to a good start. I think recently I have somehow obsessed myself with epistolary novels and suddenly everything which doesn't fall into this category just doesn't seem smart enough or complicated enough.

I know I need to and will get over this, but in the mean time, anyone ever had a "readers-block" before? Know how to get past it? 

Anyway, I've been thinking about this for a while now, so I guess it's time to get on with it...

I hate to disappoint, but I am afraid I am going to have to cop out of this one. I have been thinking long and hard the last few days over my response to this. And at first it seemed like there were a million things I  could put. When I started trying to choose one, it got tricky. My process of elimination led me to realizing, that none of these options were a good fit for the prompt.

There isn't something I am particularly angry about, and to avoid the cliche "I'm over it," the instances/situations/people that came to mind, are not people who evoke much or any emotion in me at all anymore.

I know I'm always saying what a forgiving person I am, but really - I can't think of something that hasn't been forgiven. All of the transgressions that originally came to mind I think, were things that I haven't received an apology for. But when I thought longer about it, I realize they were things that I would likely never receive apologies for and that's okay.

Like I said, I'm not angry anymore. Mostly, I just don't care any more. I don't care to bear the weight of grudges at all. Moving forward and my focus on myself have been my priorities long enough now that I don't know how to hang on to anger much more than a day at most. So, unless you are the person who took the last cookie at work today, consider yourself forgiven for anything you may have done to me.


Constant Writer said...

Reader's block-you make me laugh so much sometimes :)
I think that happens. I was reading The Dead Zone (King again) a couple years ago and the first 80 pages were just dull. I could not get into it. It took me much longer than usual to get into it. And then, boom. About 80 pages in, he got me. And I couldn't put it down after that. That's now one of my favorites from him. Some books are just slow starters. Some are just slow, period.
I think your attitude about forgiveness is extremely healthy. More often than not, it is better to let stuff go. Picking a fight is almost never worth it. I still get mad, but I usually don't hang onto it, too long. Unless it was reeeaaallly bad. Then I'm truly my father's daughter. He holds grudges like nobody's business.
PS: the person who took the last cookie at work--again :D

Outnumbered said...

Glad to entertain so much :) and I stuck it out, I'm now a few chapters deep in Abstinence Teacher and it's going a lot better.