Friday, March 4, 2011

Copping Out

Last night I started The Abstinence Teacher  - I don't know what it wrong with me, because this book and I are not off to a good start. I think recently I have somehow obsessed myself with epistolary novels and suddenly everything which doesn't fall into this category just doesn't seem smart enough or complicated enough.

I know I need to and will get over this, but in the mean time, anyone ever had a "readers-block" before? Know how to get past it? 

Anyway, I've been thinking about this for a while now, so I guess it's time to get on with it...


I hate to disappoint, but I am afraid I am going to have to cop out of this one. I have been thinking long and hard the last few days over my response to this. And at first it seemed like there were a million things I  could put. When I started trying to choose one, it got tricky. My process of elimination led me to realizing, that none of these options were a good fit for the prompt.

There isn't something I am particularly angry about, and to avoid the cliche "I'm over it," the instances/situations/people that came to mind, are not people who evoke much or any emotion in me at all anymore.

I know I'm always saying what a forgiving person I am, but really - I can't think of something that hasn't been forgiven. All of the transgressions that originally came to mind I think, were things that I haven't received an apology for. But when I thought longer about it, I realize they were things that I would likely never receive apologies for and that's okay.

Like I said, I'm not angry anymore. Mostly, I just don't care any more. I don't care to bear the weight of grudges at all. Moving forward and my focus on myself have been my priorities long enough now that I don't know how to hang on to anger much more than a day at most. So, unless you are the person who took the last cookie at work today, consider yourself forgiven for anything you may have done to me.

2 comments:

Constant Writer said...

Reader's block-you make me laugh so much sometimes :)
I think that happens. I was reading The Dead Zone (King again) a couple years ago and the first 80 pages were just dull. I could not get into it. It took me much longer than usual to get into it. And then, boom. About 80 pages in, he got me. And I couldn't put it down after that. That's now one of my favorites from him. Some books are just slow starters. Some are just slow, period.
I think your attitude about forgiveness is extremely healthy. More often than not, it is better to let stuff go. Picking a fight is almost never worth it. I still get mad, but I usually don't hang onto it, too long. Unless it was reeeaaallly bad. Then I'm truly my father's daughter. He holds grudges like nobody's business.
PS: the person who took the last cookie at work--again :D

Outnumbered said...

Glad to entertain so much :) and I stuck it out, I'm now a few chapters deep in Abstinence Teacher and it's going a lot better.